yeah

I'm putting this thing to rest...
I don't ever use it, so yeeep.
bye bye

Soooo
Here's an overview of my entire summer:

ugh

Do you ever have those days where you feel quite less than moderate looking?

Of course you do. You're human.

Tell me that you're alright
Ya, everything is alright
Oh, please tell me that you're alright
That everything is alright

Give me a reason to end this discussion
To break with tradition, to fall and divide
'Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still
Are you feeling fine?
Yes, I feel just fine.

Tell me that you're alright
Ya, everything is alright
Oh, please tell me that you're alright
That everything is alright

I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!
I used to rely on self-medication
I guess I still do that from time to time
But I'm getting better at fighting the future
Someday you'll be fine
Yes, I'll be just fine

Tell me that you're alright
Ya, everything is alright
Oh, please tell me that you're alright
That everything is alright

Give me a reason (I don't believe a word)
To end this discussion (of anything I've heard)
To break with tradition (You tell me that it's not so hard)
To fool and rely (It's all so hard)
So let’s not get carried, (away with it)
Away with the process of healing relations
I don't want to waste your time

Tell me that you're alright
Ya, everything is alright
Oh, please tell me that that you're alright
That everything is alright

(Alright)

Tell me that you're alright
Ya, everything is alright
Oh, please tell me that that you're alright
That everything is alright

Everything's fine [4x]

ladeedah

And there's three, count them, three children
Playing on the beach
They were eager to learn
To be taught, and to teach

There's Veronica
She's biting her lip
As she watches the waves
Turn white at the tip
And there's Vada
Radiating with joy
And luckily she still can't stand
The sight of a boy
And lastly there's Dade
His hair dances in the wind
And he's wondering what love is (love is)
And why it has to end

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing
When true love ends
His mother whispers quietly
"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax
So forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now"

And there's three, count them, three children
Growing on the beach
They were eager to learn
To be taught, and to teach

There's Veronica
She's licking her lips
As she waits for her real
First passionate kiss
And there's Vada
She can't admit her jealousy
Of her sister Veronica
And how she's so pretty (and how she's so pretty)
Lastly, there's Dade
Still sitting on the dock
He ponders his life
And he skips his rocks
And he wonders when his father will return
But he's not coming back

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing
When true love ends
His mother whispers quietly
"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax
So forget everything that you have heard
(Forget everything)"

And there's three, count them, three children
Missing from the beach
They were eager to learn
To be taught, and to teach

But the sad thing
Is that they never lived
Past the age of fifteen
Due to neglect from their mother
Who was bed-ridden by her ex-lover, their father
And she didn't even notice
Or pay much attention
As the tide came in
And swept her three into the ocean
Now all her advice, it seems useless

No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard
And live for the moment now

heh...

So I decided that I was not going to write in May.
So my cute little soccer updates I usually have:
We have lost most of our games! We have won two and tied one other, and lost like 10 of them! And we are going to a state tournament this upcoming weekend, where we will probably lose again!! weeee
Hm.
So school is out. I do not have much to do.
I don't have a car, so I can't exactly get a job. Hell, my friends with cars can't even get jobs. Hopefully next summer, eh?
It's creepy to think that I am out of high school in 2 years. It seems like just yesterday I was in 6th grade mooning over a crush, hahaha.
I mean seriously. I have changed, I think... Maybe not so much in looks... But yeah.
Look at this:


That's me, 6th grade. Creepily long hair!



And that's me, last week. Creepily short hair.
I have to say, I am gonna grow out me hair again, as you can't do much with short hair. Yes.

Well that's it.
Another boring blog

Cheers!

meh

Sooo hmmm...
Let's see.
In soccer, we lost our first two games, and I have two more today we'll probably lose.
There is now four foreign exchange students on my team. Fico, the Spaniard, Roberto, the Columbian, Guri, the Norwegian, and Marco, the Brazilian. It's pretty rad.
I am almost moved upstairs. I just gotta get the carpets clean and the bed up there, then viola! I am moved upstairs. My walls are metallic purple and a gray-ish color. They are badass and enjoyable.
Let's see.
I am not very witty or entertaining, hm? I guess it should be for anyone wanting to read it huh?
Well.
I don't feel very witty at this time of the day.

Aaaaah

Dear Chinese person or whoever you are,
Stop leaving comments on my blog that I cannot read!!
I will keep denying them!
Go away!

Have a nice day,
Allison

Well then.

Hm.
I thought I should put some effort into writing an actual blog.
Instead of just posting songs.
Sound good?
Good. It better.
But of course I am going to talk about soccer. What else do I ever talk about?! NOTHING! Besides dreams. And sorry to disappoint, I haven't had any cool ones lately.
Soccer. Well.
I am playing for the Big Sky League, which is a.k.a. the U19 FC Missoula team. But it is co-ed. And they don't like us as much I think, hahah.
Everyone on my team seems pretty chill. I'm quite sure I'll get along with the guys easier, as they seem to be much more talkative, and guys are usually just easier to get along with compared to girls. The girls don't talk much. But they seem pretty coooooool!

Let's see. What else...
Well, I am switching bedrooms in my house. Eventually.
I have lived in my current room for liiike 7 years. There isn't much wrong with it, other than the fact I can hear the washer constantly and whenever someone watches movies I can hear them. So bah humbug.
I am moving upstairs into my brother's old room, who is moving downstairs into my sister's old room (finally). That room is closer to a bathroom and the kitchen.
And the sun does not rise into that DAMN WINDOW.
So yay.
Oh.
And I have a closet.
I haven't had a closet for 7 years.
ISN'T THAT AMAZING.
Now I don't need my big ass dresser. YAY. Less furniture in my room, just how I like it. :D
I like space.
So I can juggle my soccer ball without breaking shit. Exciting, no?

Well

That's it really.
I don't have the most interesting life, unfortunately.
So I'll end with this note:

I hate dances.
And here's a picture:


Elton John kitty!!

Huh.

Well the future's got me worried
Such awful thoughts
My head's a carousel of pictures
The spinning never stops
I just want someone to walk in front
And I'll follow the leader

Like when I fell under the weight
Of a schoolboy crush
Started carrying her books
And doing lots of drugs
I almost forgot who I was
But I came to my senses

Now I'm trying to be assertive
I'm making plans
Going to rise to the occasion, yeah
Meet all their demands
But all I do is just lay in bed
And hide under the covers

Yeah, I know I should be brave
But I'm just too afraid of all this change

And it's too hard to focus
Through all this doubt
I keep making these to-do lists
But nothing gets crossed out
Working on the record seems pointless now
When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?

But I'm trying to take some comfort
In written words
Yeah, Tim, I heard your album
And it's better than good
When we get off tour I think we should
Hang and black out together

Because I been feeling sentimental
For days gone by
All the summers singing, drinking, my friend
Wasting our time
Remember all the songs and the way we smiled
In those basements made of music

But now I've got to crawl to get anywhere at all
I'm not as strong as I thought

So when I'm lost in a crowd
I hope that you'll pick me out
How I long to be found
The grass grew high, I laid down
Now I'm waiting for a hand
To lift me up, help me stand
I've been laying so low
Don't want to lay here no more

Don't want to lay here no more
Don't want to lay here no more
Don't want to lay here no more

Everything that happens
Is supposed to be
And it's all predetermined
Can't change your destiny
Guess I'll just keep moving
Someday maybe I'll get to where I'm going

As you may have noticed...

I have posted lyrics in my last two blogs.

And both by Bright Eyes, but that was not planned.

They seem to reflect how I feel. So that may be how I'll do blogs for now.

See the animal in his cage that you built,
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye,
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart
And it's all, right where it belongs

What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is that all you want to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself, find yourself afraid to see?

What if all the worlds inside of your head,
Just creations of your own?
Your devils and your Gods, all the living and the dead
And you're really all alone?
You could live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the woods
While you're hiding in the trees

What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is that all you want to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself, find yourself afraid to see?

I sure do love Bright Eyes

This is the first day of my life

Swear I was born right in the doorway

I went out in the rain, suddenly everything changed

They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours was the first face that I saw

I think I was blind before I met you

I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been

But I know where I want to go

So I thought I'd let you know

That these things take forever, I especially am slow

But I realized how I need you

And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night

Just to meet me in the morning?

And I thought it was strange, you said everything changed

You felt as if you just woke up

And you said

"This is the first day of my life

Glad I didn't die before I met you

Now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you

And I'd probably be happy"

So if you want to be with me

With these things there's no telling

We'll just have to wait and see

But I'd rather be working for a paycheck

Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides, maybe this time is different

I mean, I really think you like me

You don't understand.

"Was it true what I heard about the son of God?

Did he come to save?

Did he come at all?

And if I dried his feet with my dirty hair

Would he make me clean again?

They say they don't know when but a day's gonna come

When there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun

It will just go black, it will just go back

To the way it was before

I knew a lovely girl with such pretty pride

And every man wanted her, yeah, and so did I

Yeah, and so did I

But she up and died in a fit of vanity

Now men with purple hearts carry silver guns

And they'll kill a man for what his father's done

But what my father did, no, it don't mean shit

I'm not him

And you think I need some discipline well, I've had my share

I've been sent to my room, I've been sat in a chair

And I held my tongue, I didn't plug my ears

No, I got a good talking to

And I don't know why, but I still try to smile

When they talk at me like I'm just a child

Well, I'm not a child

No, I am much younger than that

But now I've read some books and I've grown quite brave

If I could just speak up I think I would say

That there is no truth

There is only you and what you make the truth

So, I'll just sing my songs and I'll pass a hat

And then I'll leave your town and I'll never look back

No I won't look back because the road is clear

And laid out ahead of me

And I'll get home

I'll meet my friends at our favorite bar

We'll get some lighter heads for our heavy hearts

And we'll share a drink, yeah we'll share our fears

And they'll know how I love them

They will know how I love

They will know how I love them

I'm nothing without their love

Now I don't know when but day's gonna come

When there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun

It will all go black, it will all go back

To the way it's supposed to be Is it true what they say about the son of God?

Did he die for us?

Did he die at all?

If I sold my soul, for a bag of gold to you

Which one of us would be the foolish one?

Which one of us would be the fool?

Which one of us would be the foolish one?

Which one of us would be the fool?

Could you please start explaining?

You know I need some understanding

Could you please start explaining?

You know I need some understanding

Could you please start explaining?

You know I need understanding

Could you just start explaining?

You don't understand "